Thursday, September 3, 2009

on DROUGHTS and DOUBTS...

I lost my voice, I have a cold.
I lost my words, I don’t know why.
There are things I want to say, things I want to write,
I Want! I Dont! I fucking Cant!
The words have flown away and its frustrating.
My head is filled, my thoughts are roaming, screaming, drowning!
Questions, doubts, half-formed words, thoughts, buts, ifs and nots...
There is no release, no orgasm...
I lost my words. I hate the thought!

31 comments:

Rene said...

sorry hun

Sassy Trends said...

Stuffs like that happen dear...
I think you need to relax and they will start flowing in like a soothing river.
Pele

xx

Ms. 'dufa said...

Don't think too much about it and you'll see, soon enough it'll all come back to you...meanwhile, cheer up!

Shubby Doo said...

mehn...it's as if u've captured the torment raging within me this week...take is easy girl...like sassy said...it is soon to start flowing...i wish u well

HYAW said...

Sometimes when i read your posts, i feel like i wrote them. 'I lost my words' is something very familiar. I am sure they just seem like they are gone, but deep within, they are still there. Just try not to think the words are gone, i magine they travelled, and they would be back very soon. Take care

TRYBES said...

You will live through it..Just keep your head up and know that whateva it is,your comin out stronger and bolder...

Best wishes

akaBagucci said...

a blank page is a blank page... worthless words can be edited in future...

Jude Dibia said...

This was really well laid out... the flow, the symmetry of the words... the familiar feeling of knowing exactly what you are talking about. Short and sweet!

rayo said...

@Rene; tnx dear
@ST; i kno, its just that its gettin frustrating...
@Ms Dufa; tnx!
@Shubby doo; gud 2 kno i aint alone...
@hyaw; they shld beta come bak soon, b4 i dcyd 2 follow them oh.
@Trybes; tnx, nd i rili hope sumtn gr8 comes outta it!
@aka bagucci; i honestly am tryin to undastand that oh
@JD; now that u say it, i see this as some 4m of 'writing'. lol. tnx. u just gave me a bryt lyt! lol

ManCee said...

Of course,
More scary than losing the power of speech
Is for the mind to look for and not find
The words to relay its yearnings

Yours' STILL relays it desire rather fluently, I must say. It still makes the multitude feel your pain.

But you want more...
I'd say, read the scribbled words of others
Let their hearts speak to yours
and your heart may yet find the path you seek.

Safe.

**OnYxStA** said...

soz

http://say-bleurgh.blogspot.com/

sunnyside said...

that seems like a vivid description of a place i have been to recently. just give your self some time, something will inspire you real soon,something or someone will cause those words to flow..

Temitayo said...

Nice one there, Rayo...short and brilliant! Me love the last line most.

StandTall-The Activist said...

that is a peom right? If yes, beautifully written, if it's talking abt your experience, just take a deep breath and take a walk...

BSNC said...

keep your head up babe, hope you are better now..

Uzezi said...

whats up, fine girl

Oreo said...

Awww, im sure its just a phase.

wellsbaba said...

u need me...d real doctor lol u will get good orgasm lol those words will flow u dont even need to think....oh my god oh my god oh my god(u know ow u say it when i give it to you nah lol)

rayo said...

@wells, u musta been drunk when u dropd that comment. that is ur only excuse. just lemme catch u. mscheeeew

Harry-Rami Itie said...

just relax...these things happem

funkola said...

and u had to go all poetic about it...show off!
hey Rayo!!!

HYAW said...

sorry dear, i am sure it will come

doll said...

sorry o!

Afrobabe said...

took the words right out of my mouth...half formed words and thoughts indeed...seems my brainis too lazy to even use imagination

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

I'm sorry you are going through this. But, for someone who lost their words, your words captured exactly what you are going through. Don't lose hope.

=)

Tisha said...

hey
just write exactly the way the
words flow

Trésor said...

You gonna find words soon. but before you do just keep mouthing your thots.
Some people can lip-read.

crazy said...

Whao!!! Thats a lotta emotion in there!!

Myne Whitman said...

Thats so deep, just came here first time. When are you back?

tara douglas said...

i miss u on blogger...
where are u?

... said...

Heeey! Sorry. It happens to the best in the business. It only means you have many ideas at once - but u can't hv too many. So,pls keep at it